Thursday, October 11, 2012

Robert, by Drew


The name used below has been changed to protect the individual’s privacy.

                I want to tell you the story of a young man named Robert.  Robert is a participant at The Center at Blessed Sacrament, a drop in center for homeless individuals to participate in community groups.  I first met him in a mindfulness meditation group and was quickly intrigued by his strong diction and sensitivity to others as the topic of having a positive attitude in negative circumstances was discussed. 
                Speaking with Robert after the group ended I learned he had been homeless in Hollywood for three months.  Coming from an abusive family in Georgia, he worked hard and achieved much in his young life with little outside support.  He was on a football scholarship at Missouri State University where he was pursuing becoming a medical doctor. 
                However, despite all this accomplishment, Robert still felt unfulfilled and decided to pursue his love of the arts in Hollywood.  Giving away everything he had, he moved to LA with $300 in his pocket.  He wanted what so many like him have come here for: to become an actor.  He later admitted to me that as his plane touched down at LAX and the gravity of his decision fell upon him, he knew he would sleep on the street that night. 
                It is now three months later and Robert is sipping coffee and eating donuts in our homeless care facility.  At 22-years-old and full of potential and ambition, his circumstance bewilders me.  I ask myself, “Isn’t homelessness reserved for the mentally ill, downtrodden, antisocial, unmotivated people?  How can someone like this fall so low?” 
                Robert has invented a theory I like to call Robert’s Hierarchy of Needs.  Unlike Maslow’s, which begins with life’s most fundamental components for contentedness, Robert’s works backwards, peeling away the excess down to what is most essential to be content.  Because he does not have bills to pay, work to be on time to, or money to manage, he is able to live more freely. Without these little human stresses, Robert is actually content in a way he never has been before.  Once all you have to worry about is finding food and shelter, your natural survival instincts take over and keep you alive, he says.
                While Robert is doing all right for now, the dangers of drugs, alcohol, and violence on the street has proven time and time again to be inevitable.  He is currently applying for jobs and searching for avenues to use his artistic abilities. 
                Life in Hollywood proves to be challenging for me as well.  This week, my computer was stolen from our house.  We have also had other major thefts and some illnesses.  But, amidst the hardship, there is a sense of peace.  Maybe I am better understanding my own hierarchy of needs. 
                This city is damaged and in need of healing and I am not sure I can do anything to help it.  But I can at least listen to someone like Robert share his story while he finishes his donut. 
Drew is a current Dweller in Hollywood.  More about the work he and his intentional community are doing: www.facebook.com/DOORHollywoodDwell

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