Saturday, October 31, 2009

God Gives, God Takes

"God gives. God takes. God's name be ever blessed. "- Job 1:21, The Message


This week, I saw the face of God in Alex, Wendy, Kenna, Will, and Curtis. I am so humbled by their patience and grace in the midst of a week of losses, and it got me contemplating Job. Late last week, the house internet went down and repairing it was going to take about a week. A few days later after a wickedly brutal windstorm that downed and uprooted many trees throughout LA, the house's water heater died completely, rendering the water supply cold directly during the first briskly "fall" days of their year together. On my personal home front, last week would usher in a new phase for our newborn: frequent fussiness. Goodbye to sleep, my wife and I quietly lamented.


And yet, there was a posture of positivity, and that touched me deeply. Will recognized that life without the internet for a week may have been a blessing, as he noted that he might be spending too much time on it. Curtis called me, even laughing, that in his attempt to take a warm shower during the several days without, he traveled uptown to his gym, only to find that THEIR water heater was broken as well! (Others seemed fine with "roughing it" or thickening their souls with cold showers :) And how good is God: Kenna called me to say that our new friend Jose, who is helping to lead an exciting Bible study at the community house for the neighborhood teenagers, offered to install a new water heater, free of charge. Made me begin to think the reverse of the verse: "God taketh away, and God indeed giveth..."


But I truly feel that, if we focus on blessing God's name as the verse commands, we can learn to see that even God's "taking" involves "giving." At the very moment something is removed from our lives, new blessings come pouring in. The internet's absence caused progress in face to face communication. The broken water heater provided us the blessing of a stronger friendship with Jose and his partner Alfonso. And, even though my wife and I are struggling with more significant sleep deprivation, we both realized that our teamwork is growing stronger and we are beginning to talk to each other like we used to, back before our baby was born.


So, indeed, may God's name be forever blessed, and thankful am I that we get to encourage one another in abundances and shortages. God is forever great.


Amen,
Matthew

Friday, October 23, 2009

From Stephanie


This week's blog is excerpts from Stephanie's end of the year reflection letter. Stephanie was a Dweller for the 2008/2009 season.




Dear Friends and Family,

I hope that this letter finds you doing well and that you are getting back into the swing of things as, sadly, summer is officially over and fall has begun! As most of you know already, I have “finished ” my year of service in the Los Angeles area (specifically Hollywood and Pasadena) and have been living back in Arizona for a little over a month now. I apologize for the delay in getting this final letter to you. As you can probably imagine, I experienced, witnessed and grew a lot in this past year, and it has taken some time to process it all.


A lot has happened this past year, for all of us, so let me take a minute to give a quick recap of what I did while I was in Los Angeles. Last September, I moved to an urban part of Hollywood to live in an intentional Christian community with 3 other women. In addition to working with the families, especially the children, in the neighborhood, I worked 32 hours a week at a transitional house for homeless families in Pasadena. The name of the organization is Door of Hope and I was the director of the after school program for kids ages 3-13. I have been keeping you all updated throughout my year of service, however I would like to take this time to reflect with you now that the year has come to an end.


One question people have consistently been asking me since I have returned home is: “What did you learn during your year of service?” There really is not a simple answer to that question. I was working with such a diverse group of people and situations that the lessons I learned are just as diverse. Let me expand upon a few of the lessons.

Something God has taught me throughout this past year is the importance of being able to trust Him and opening my eyes to see how He is working in my life as well as in those around me. If I can trust God, I will see that He is always there for me and He will guide me through anything and everything.


At Door of Hope, I learned a lot about the ins and outs of the non-profit world, but I also learned more about the seriousness of homelessness in the United States, specifically in LA. I also discovered the generosity of people who are in need themselves and how families facing homelessness do their best to survive.


By living in my neighborhood, I met families who were struggling to make ends meet; yet somehow they still remained positive. I also learned of the heartbreaking realities that teenagers face on a daily basis that leave them hoping they will simply make it to their 18th birthday.


To continue with the diverse lessons that I learned, my roommates and I learned how to work as a team, start a community garden, live simply, and how to live together and support each other despite our very different personalities. We also got the incredible opportunity to learn in depth the problem with immigration laws and actually got to know some families directly affected by them.


Along with the many lessons that are permanently ingrained in my memory, there were also many people I was fortunate enough to meet and know on a more personal level, including my roommates, co-workers, city director, board members, and neighbors. There were also a lot of great families at Door of Hope, but there was one family in particular that I had a special bond with. The family consisted of a single mom and her daughter. The little girl was a part of my after-school program even though she was just under 3 years old. For no particular reason, she was behind developmentally, especially when it came to speech. Even though she was the youngest kid, she was the most helpful and has such a kind spirit. When I would drop my papers or the spoons for snack time, she would be the first to hop out of her chair and come help me, without me even asking.


After having her in the program for a little over a month, her mom expressed, to me, her concern and frustration over her daughter’s slow speech development. I told her that I would see what I could do to help. For the next couple of months, after some research, her mother and I started working with the little girl on letters and pronunciations. Her speech started improving slowly but surely. In October, you could only understand her say hello and goodbye and maybe catch a few other words here and there, but come February she was able to speak more clearly and express herself, instead of simply screaming or yelling. Over the year, I started to form a special bond with this family. Every time I saw her, I couldn’t help but smile because she would jump and give me a huge hug and yell, “ Hi, Stephanie!”


A week before I finished at Door of Hope, I received some wonderful news that they had found affordable permanent housing, meaning they would be graduating from the Door of Hope program in just a couple of weeks. After gradually building this personal bond with their family, this was a perfect way to end my year, by seeing the two of them graduate from our program. What a blessing! God truly showed me His love through this incredible family.


I will close with this, as I was packing up and cleaning my desk at Door of Hope, one of my co-workers asked me, “So Stephanie, how do you feel as you are about to exit your life of service and mission?” This question shocked me, as I had not thought of my year of service ending as an exit from the mission field. This got me thinking, “Does one really leave a life of service and mission?” I came to the conclusion that no, we do not leave. I strongly believe that God has called each of us to serve Him by serving the people around us each and every day of our lives. This does not mean we all have to stop what we are doing and move to serve long term, in a location in need. I believe living a life of service can be lived out by simply holding the door open for someone to doing a random act of kindness for a complete stranger to serving at a local soup kitchen. This is my challenge to you: think of how you can serve God by serving others in your day–to-day life.


Much love,

Stephanie

Friday, October 16, 2009

Everything as it Should Be....


"But there's far more to life for us. We're citizens of high heaven! We're waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, who will transform our earthy bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He'll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him." - Philippians 3:20-21, The Message


Last weekend, the Dwellers and I, (Alex, Will, Matthew, Curtis, Kenna, and Wendy above, (click on colored names for personal blogs)) joined Hollywood Presbyterian Church's annual All-Church camp at Forest Home in the San Bernardino Mountains. It would just so happen that the theme of the sermon series was "Transformation!" How topical it was for all of us: the Dwellers, a month into their year of service and community in the dense urban landscape of Hollywood, and me, a brand new father. The speaker brilliantly wove together Scriptural nods to how following Christ provides and requires transformation with moments from the Wizard of Oz, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Little Mermaid, The Velveteen Rabbit, and other well known tales. He was juxtaposing the Hollywood notion of "happily ever after," with the Biblical promise of paradise, or "everything as it should be."


For me, Forest Home has always served as a touchstone in my faith. It was there I first began to argue my complications with Christianity, and there I learned that while following Christ can be hard and painful at times, there is room for fun and celebration. What a blessing it was, then, for me to just observe these 5 newly arrived missionaries undergo a piece of transformation during the weekend. As we concluded our testimonial sharing, God came shining through in surprising and powerful ways, completely catching us all off guard. But isn't that what we always long for? Isn't that, in part, what we hope 'happily ever after' is all about? Isn't that a piece of heaven on earth, that when the road is rocky or the climb is steep, that God provides us the strength and the courage to keep going, to press on towards the place he calls us back to? And, wow, the joy that can be felt in the climb once you feel God cheering you on:




Now I know that whenever I try to make everything "as it should be," it fails miserably. (Case in point: attempting to develop a schedule for our 3-week old daughter! Ha! She has literally thrown up and wailed through every moment we think we've got her all figured out. Oh well, :) ) But when I step out of the way and trust that this Transformation business is God's and God's alone, and all I have to do, all anyone has to do, is yield to that and trust in the glory of the change, true miracles result. This weekend proved that: what once was lost was suddenly found; what once was confusing was suddenly clear; what once was frightening was suddenly relief; what once was tension was sliding into grace and laughter. Amen.

God is so good. And as we stood around that campfire on the final night, I was washed again in the feeling I found years ago: that there is indeed far more to life for us, and there is so much warmth and glow and encouragement in that realization.



Many blessings and prayers for your own campfires and for good friends to link arms with and revel in God's love,

Matthew

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Opening....


"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." - Matthew 7:7 NIV

Doors and eyes are opening here at DOOR Hollywood. Here are windows into the blogs of Curtis and Alex. Click on the text to read the full blog!


"Although it has an important biological function, fear can sometimes be a bad thing. In the Bible, God is frequently telling folks to relax and "be not afraid." Fear can make us act violently and hatefully. Fear is probably the number one reason why most of us don't really pay too much attention when Jesus tells us to "love our enemies." Fear is why a lot of kids join gangs. Fear is why we build walls between us and them, and also why we steer clear of certain "wrong" sides of town.

The reason I would refer to South Central as the "wrong" side of town for guys like me and Curtis has a little to do with race and a lot to do with money and power. I've said it before (almost exactly a year ago, as a matter of fact) and I'll say it again: if you don't have money or power, you have very little reason to be afraid in the inner city. Not coincidentally, that's what this year of dwelling in the inner city is about. Freeing ourselves from enslavement to worldly money and power. Coming face to face with people that are different than us and that sometimes scare us....." -From Alex's blog about an experience after a USC football game (shown above.)

Blessings and peace to you all!

Matthew